Reflection #6

Everyday I feel more and more like a teacher, but sometimes I doubt my ability in being able to educate children because I get extremely nervous when I have to go in front of my peers and messed up. A teacher shouldn't be nervous like that..right? We aren't allowed to teach kids at this stage of the education program, but we do teach each other. I often feel as though I never do a stellar job when we have to do a "lesson" to my peers, but then I step into my observation class and I realize that teaching in front of my peers is nothing like teaching a class of eight year olds. I can connect with kids in away that I can't with my fellow future educators. Thats okay, I wasn't called to educate 21 year olds. I have to keep going and know that even if I don't compare with the people in my classes I will make an amazing teacher someday because I have a passion for children to learn. My strengths and weakness are more apparent to me now then ever before and I think that this process we go through in the program is meant to do that to us. I hate it and love it at the same time but I will keep going knowing that God is behind me guiding and sometimes pushing me in the right direction.